Drunken Musings

Well I had an interesting night. After indulging in my new obsession with Sean Paul (a great way to pass the time at the library), I decided to have an entertaining night out with the I.O. psych ppl. Thank goodness Derek drove last night, cuz I was loopy. So Derek, Gaird and I met up with Lauren, Darcee, Mario, and Amy (forgive me if I forgot anyone). I played pool for a while, but soon decided that I needed some booze. So I ordered a Pineappletini, and the fun times began. Downed the drink in 10 minutes (that is realllly good for me, hehe) and Brad, Daniela, Norm and Nitin strolled in. The more the merrier, I like to say, lol. So Lauren and I were talking, and she let me try her drink. I was hooked. So I bought this delicious drink, a Tom Collins, and it was over for me. I bought like two of them, and the bartender was mixing extremely strong drinks, so I was quite tipsy. It was nice though. I think that I'm becoming a lush, and I've only been in grad school for three weeks! I've bought alcohol at least 3 times in the past week, and of course I've drank more times than that in the past week. And it's so bad being tipsy, cuz I feel like I'm going to blurt something out that should never fall from my lips.

Of course in my tipsy state, I had an epiphany. I realized last night that I'm still on a spiritual and emotional journey that began about a year ago, when I let a certain person go. I'm still going through my stage of not desiring to be emotionally attached to someone specifically, but empathizing with those who truly care and want to be in that type of relationship. I thought that maybe I've just been fickle in the past year, not wanting to be tied down, but still needing attention. And then, it all came to me: clearly, I just want it all. I've never had to make choices about stuff that I want. For example, you can either get this toy or the other one, you can't have both. But you see, I always did get both, so I'm in the mindset that you can have everything that you want, as long as you put a little work into it, lol. But enough about that.

I'm bored out of my mind today, since I woke up late, dashing all hopes of going to Boston or New York. I even looked for cool places to go in CT (like a dairy farm!), but I don't feel like driving for a long distance. I suppose that the outlet mall is calling my name, lol. That's the problem with grad school, you never have any money, yet you end up spending it during your free time. Like I'm about to drop more than half a grand on my rent today, and it's my day off. See what I mean? Spending money during my free time. Then, the shopping experience here kinda sucks. All they have is J Crew. Now I did utilize the wonderful perk of getting 15% off at the J Crew store by opening up an account, but there's only so much J Crew I can stand. Mostly, I spend money on food. I must be a real FA cuz I have to go grocery shopping once a week, and I only live with one other person! Vanessa and I seriously spend around $100 on groceries each week. I've tried to cut down, but I'm hooked on grocery shopping. Sigh, maybe I need to seek professional help so I can conquer my grocery addiction, lol.

Or maybe I should seek professional help about my strange dreams. I had some dream about the freakin big chicken that Vanessa fixed last week. Well my dream was about us cooking another chicken, but somehow, the chicken shrank after I soaked it in water. I mean it shrank to the point that it was perhaps as small as a quail. I was really freaked out about the chicken, and somehow, I ended up having 2 fractured wrists and a broken leg. Maybe the shrunken chicken decided to perform some voodoo on me, I don't know. But bad stuff started happening to Vanessa and me, and it all seemed to be linked to the shrunken chicken. Yeah, I definitely need a professional.