Like a Virgin

Well, I've been thinking about a lot of things, and I thought I'd share.

My weird story is that this morning, I had to take pictures, etc to model stuff that I'm selling on Ebay. These bidders are so demanding, wanting me to pose a thousand different ways with a freaking jacket on. But anyways, so I was taking pics of the jacket, and then I got the idea that hey, it would be fun to take cute pics of myself, perhaps for facebook. But oh, the pictures I took should probably be at the beginning of some freaky site. They're like pics of myself lying down with PJs on, but I think that they have that "come hither" look.

So classes sucked all week, and I won't even begin to get into that.

I've been evaluating things, and I just feel like I made mistakes that I'm dreadfully regretting right now. I'm trying to rectify these situations, but I think that it takes awhile to get rid of that image. Just don't limit yourselves. And realize that in the end, usually you're the one that knows yourself best and what you need and don't EVER try to conform to another's belief system.

Tonight was funny. This guy was in the bar, and he had on a shirt that had the word "guilty" on it. Gaird says to me "why don't you go over there and ask him why he's so guilty"? And of course I said "I'll go over there and give him a reason to be guilty". And now I'm the librarian by day and freak by night, or something to that effect. Except, let's be truthful. Let's not forget why my name is little geisha.

I'm looking at my goody goody life right now, and I've realized that I haven't seduced anyone recently. I mean REALLY seduced someone. I hope that the art of seduction is like riding a bike, or I'm SOL. Actually, I have back ups, so it's cool. And who needs seduction when there's fun activities like getting taken out to dinner by pretend boyfs? (can ya'll detect just a tinge of sarcasm? just a tinge????)

I've decided that it is okay to have ho mentality as long as you're not presenting yourself as a ho. As long as you don't have a pimp and as long as you're in charge of the game. And I thought about it tonight, and maybe the little lamb has not come back, and she might need to have an extended year of debauchery. I mean, maybe not full fledged debauchery. But at least some blush inducing debauchery.

And I miss the belly dancing. I really miss the belly dancing. i miss being on stage, feeling so free and so alive in my chest exposing costume and skirt. It always makes me feel so sexy, even though I don't look like some ho in my dancing. Cuz I actually have skills, lol.

I actually like to go out and have fun on a regular basis. Don't get it twisted. Have we quickly forgotten the infamous 40s? The wild clubbing where there would be a ton of numbers? Blow Out? Taste of Asia night that warms the cockles of my soul? Lady Marmalade? And then all the belly dancing you'd ever want. And much more.

You know what? I miss old school Madonna. The bitch should've never changed her voice or her look. She sounded so cute back then, and it's such a travesty that 80s Madonna lives on only in Japanese karaoke and Alisha's Ipod.