So Much To Write

I need to post in my blog almost every single day cuz stuff just keeps happening, hehehe.

So last week was fun. On Thursday, I was crazy, and on my lunchbreak I walked from my office (on 20th and 6th ave) to a Japanese bakery called Panya. I had heard about it online, and it seemed like it would be a nice place to get an anpan. But I guess I didn't realize how far away 9th and 2nd ave is from my workplace. So it was a good 20 min walk. Then, when I got there and asked for my anpan, and whipped out my debit card, the guy was like, we don't accept cards. So I rummaged through my purse for change (ya'll know i don't carry cash). But the guy was finally like, "how much do you have?". I told him $1.20, and even though the anpan was $1.25, he just accepted my $1.20! And I walked briskly back to work. Ooh, and after work on Friday, I met up with Gaird and Katherine and we had mexican food and margaritas! Oh the happiness...

Ooh, and the weekend was tons of fun too. I went over to Renee and Kanmani's apartment with Trina and Zach. We decorated eggs, and it was so cute! Renee made an easter bunny cake which was so adorable! And when Zack arrived, we watched Funny Face, my favorite movie (much to the boys' dismay, haha). Then, later on that night, Zach, Zack, Trina, and I went to BAR. Boring as ever with ugly men and men that just wanted to get with each other. I was majorly disappointed. I don't think I want to go there anymore (except for pizza).

Easter started off well, but of course had to a little blip. Just wanna let ya'll know that I absolutely abhor empty conversation. Honestly, if a person doesn't want to go beyond empty conversation by hanging out or a phone call or email, then I'd rather just skip the empty conversation and not talk at all. But other than that, I really enjoyed the Easter service and everyone was so nice and friendly at church. After church, I gorged on the chocolate my parents sent me, and curled up with the cute Easter bunny beanie buddy that my dad picked out for me. Then I had easter dindin at Renee's with Kanmani, Zack, Gaird, and Zach. I love get togethers like that!

So this week. I really don't remember Monday. I definitely remember yesterday cuz it was riddled with really embarrassing incidents. First of all, when I got to NRDC, I went to the restroom. Of course, there's construction on my floor of the office building. So as I was washing my hands and adjusting my clothes, a construction guy walks in. I didn't even realize he was an construction guy, cuz he had a long ponytail, and he was in my periphery. But he said he was really sorry, but it was still sorta embarrassing.

Then, on my lunch break, I thought that I could quickly pick up my glasses and get back to the office. No no no. I felt so bad when I got back.

Then, I had a meeting with my boss. and I was standing up, and she told me to zip up my fly. And I was like omg, how long have I been walking around like this (only maybe 15 mins, and i was at my desk). But I was sooo embarrassed, luckily I was wearing nude colored panties.

Then, worst of all, The receptionist. This really sweet guy. I think he's so nice. I saw him, he's wearing a pink polo and a cute jacket. I said "hi__. I like your jacket, it's pretty". What the HECK was that? I was like, eek, I mean that it looks nice. Thankfully, he wasn't offended. It was so bad. I was just so inappropriate all day. Maybe everyone has days like that. Actually, another embarrassing thing happened too, but it's too much to put on this blog.

So I made some career decisions in the past week, and now I basically have a feel for what I'd like to do after I graduate. It's good to have some direction.

I'm really understanding how important it is to stay true to your values. For example, I felt like I was being tested a few weeks ago because I have a weakness for certain relationships. But luckily I resisted, which only made me stronger in the end.

Also, I'm becoming my really old self again, in the sense that I actually have compassion. I don't necessarily know if this is a good thing. Cuz now if I see someone that I feel is getting the brunt of societal injustices, it not only makes me want to change things, but also makes me emotionally distraught. I saw this homeless guy on the street last week, and I almost felt compelled to give him a $20. But actually, I'm glad that I didn't, cuz yesterday when I saw him, he was yelling out obscenities, and I think he pointed to me and some other black lady saying "you niggas think you know, but don't know a damn thing" or something to that effect. I'm sure that he was probably referring to us as such because he's upset cuz we're like the house slaves and he's the field one. I don't have to go into how much that sucks.

But I definitely knew that I was going back to the old compassionate self when I was actually on the verge of tears when i was thinking about the waitress' plight at that sketchy diner. And this is coming from the girl who didn't cry when she was on line. But just cuz I've gone compassionate doesn't mean that I'm going to start tolerating ppl's complaining about how oh my life is so busy and I have soooo much to do. Cuz that's just annoying, and it just means that there's difficulty handling stress. Just get your ish done and don't complain. Cuz it's gotta get done anyways.

I have class soon, so it's time to read up! Oh, and MAYBE go to the gym cuz I'm wearing my fat jeans today. Now I really am turning into Jen Lancaster.