sigh

not in the mood to do an in-depth entry, so i'll just give you a current likes and dislikes list.

currently liking:
*mary j. blige- luv her soooo much
*sean paul- can't get over those jamaican men
*7-11- going there 5 times this week, hahahaha
*trader joe's
*Everyone Worth Knowing- good book so far
*tiramisu gelato
*Notorious MSG! www.notoriousmsg.com
*dancing
*singing
*kooba
*Gateway
*pluralism
*multiculturalism that does not exist in New Haven
*going to ethnic restuarants
*broadening my horizons
*european dreams
*dreams in general
*talking to Amaka, she makes my day!
*Talking to Jamie, I miss you so much! "maria, maria" ;)
*talking to my friends abroad
*talking to wm peeps
*chillin with I/O ppl
*Facebook messages!

dislikes:

*everything being just b/w
*the asian food market only having indian food
*exams
*class in general
*the radio stations here that can't seem to play new music, but play songs that are 6 months old
*feeling helpless or dependent
*sex on the first date, or anyone attempting to do that shit (with me)
*bad kisses where you can't even connect with the person
*Vera Bradley- it just makes me ill seeing the ladies in the store wearing it

Dream Sequence

I had a dream last night that I thought I'd share. I was in a house with a piano. I was compelled to play this piano, this instrument, but I was afraid. I felt that it had been too long, that I had forgotten how to do so. Others in the house taunted me with pessimistic words, saying that I could not play the piano. Then, a Man told me with encouraging words that I could play the piano. And I played it.

Let's just say that it has begun, and I am ready for it.

Oh so glamorous...

Let's recap this week.

So the whole I/O program had an amazing time at my party! So much that nessie ness and I are probably going to have another one in a month. Glad that the mission was accomplished.

So I've been going on cute "day trips" every week, and I decided to go to Greenwich, CT last Friday. Greenwich is so pretty, and it reminds me of Georgetown, only Georgetown has more shops. I can appreciate the Sephora there, thankfully. And the Baccarat, but that's another story, hehe. But it seriously brings to light the diversity issues in this tundra called CT, and just makes me realize that I am definitely going to be an asset to organizations when I finally retire from my job as a professional student.

Saturday was pretty boring though. I can't wait til Vanessa's birthday this week, so I can finally live it up again! Bottega anyone?

On Sunday I was quite excited about going to membership classes at church. But then, I saw a certain car, and I was sorta upset. I mean friends don't just show up without telling you. Whatever. I can get my fix by going to see that movie The New World... or by looking in the mirror, lol! But anyways, church was hot, and I was prophesized to, which was a good experience.

Anyways, today something happened to my baby:( Some evil person put a huge scratch on the hood of my car and I was so ticked off. I was looking for a ho to slap (just anyone, I'm not picky, lol). For some reason, that sexy Jetta seems to attract unwanted scratches and loiterers. I was like throwing a BF all day long.

Speaking of Native Americans, I always used to to joke when i was little about how I fully intended to handpick my husband from the reservation. So bad, I know. Ooh, and I miss seeing Night Wind at WM, and sighing with pleasure in his presence. LOL, I would *almost* switch religions just to have a reason to justify the usage of peyote on a regular basis. Darn it, my prof is rubbing off on me, I HAVE to stop talking about drugs, especially since I'm not a user. But I'm still all about the peyote, hehe.

In other news, apparently I'm one of those racially ambiguous people. UNH happens to have a um, large Indian population, and they all think I'm Indian. Can we say high school all over again? I suppose they think that I'm going to make the perfect indian bride, how wonderful. And the girls are all friendly too. That's hot. A person who shall not be named (because he's so scary right now) was like, "where are you from?" and I was like, "Maryland". Then he was like "no, where are you really from" and I was like "um, i'm black".

Grad school is so boring right now, sigh. I'll have to go stir things up at 7-11 or something (that is definitely the hotspot, but I saw it first, bitches!).

What I learned in my devotions this morning...

"Therefore do not let anyone judge you by what you eat or drink... Since you died with Christ to the basic principles of this world, why as though you still belonged to it, do you submit to its rules: 'Do not handle! Do not taste! Do not touch!'? These are all destined to perish with use, because they are based on human command and teachings. Such regulations indeed have an appearance of wisdom with their self imposed worship, their false humility and their harsh treatment of the body, but they lack any value in restraining sensual indulgence"- Colossians 2:16; 20-23.

Paul is becoming my homeboy more and more each day, hahaha! I can't believe that I used to dislike him!

*Getting Crunk at 200 Fountain*

If you weren't there, you missed the hottest party of the year, seriously. I wish that all of WM friends could've been there. We all would've been drinking the Hpnotiq and Grey Goose and dancing like crazy. So let's get down to it!

I was worried because I thought that a hell of a lot of people would not attend, since people did not respond to the evite, lol. I was wrong. Despite the fact that it was raining and windy, almost like a hurricane, people still managed to come out! Nessie ness and I decided that the overall theme of the night would be "Bitches only"! So we go dressed, looked so sexy and hot, and waited for the arrival of our guests. First ones were Derek and Zach. Next thing we knew, literally everyone was at our place! I had like 5 people call me simultaneously to let me know they had arrived. And of course I was already on the way to being drunk, lol. Oh, it was amazing! So here are the pictures:

Me, Norm, Stephanie, and Vanessa


Norm and me


Me, Norm, Stephanie


Sarah, Norm, Brad, and Veronica


Lauren and me!


We're hot!


Imran and me



group pic


AJ and me


Big group pic


Highlights of the evening were the missing person, an unwanted flirter, being picked up by numerous people, telling people "don't touch my Alize", etc.

And this convo with Vanessa:
Me- Vanessa, __'s brought some blunts, this is a once in a lifetime chance, let's do it.
Vanessa-Alisha! Don't ask me such things when I'm drunk!

Then, there were our funny times, when we were like, we're the shit, we're the shit, we threw a fab party! And it didn't end til 3am, everyone was drunk when we left (except Zach and Imran, I think), and we STILL had some alcohol left. All in all, an amazing party:)

Check out the alcohol for the party!!!!

One Big Post

I haven't posted in awhile, and so much has occurred. So this might be a bit long, hehe.

On Christmas-

So my first trimester in graduate school finally ended, and it was time to take myself home to that wonderful state called MD! Happiness:) I had so much fun during break, despite the fact that it was only 2 weeks long. The Christmas Eve service at church was truly inspiring. Christmas day was sheer joy, especially since my family truly enjoyed the gifts I got them! Like I got my Dad Jcrew flannel lined pants, and a sweater and other stuff, and I got my Mom a cashmere sweater among other items. And little Chestnut loved his cute cat sofa (don't tell him it's really for kitties). Christmas Day was filled with cheer, and it was celebrated at my aunt's house. My cousins were all there, and so were my crazy aunts. My cousin Kevin's girlfriend Fabiana made the nasty flan that I hate so freakin much. And my cousin Markeeta's baby's father was there, which put somewhat of a damper on things (he's a mo fo), but other than that, it was the best ever! And my cutie pie second cousin Khia looked so adorable, and put stickers all over my face (it's a sign, she likes me!).

On 2005-

K, so I attempted to do a lists of firsts, but it all ended up being dirty humor, so I stopped, hahaha. But out of all of it, I would like to say that it was the year when I found out that I had been missing out, and I can thank a certain Arab man for that ;) I thank God every single day for what happened between us, because I felt myself come alive, and I feel like I found the real me through it. It basically helped me realize that there CAN be heaven on earth, lol. So I'll say that 2005 was a year of soul searching and finding myself. It was my first year of being single since freshman year, and it was the best time I ever had.

My New Year's Resolutions-

*Get a massage once a month (i've already followed through, see below!)
*Get rid of ho mentality (hmm, one week, and I've already had a relapse, lol)
*Make a certain project (almost impossible, but you never know...)
*Keep in touch with everyone more


On DC Fashion Over Break-

Sigh, it was so bad. I wasn't even home for 2 days, before I felt the need to purchase a new pair of Ugg boots and stuff the bottoms of my pants into them, so I'd blend in. I cursed myself for leaving my Burberry jacket in CT, lol. Not really, but that was basically the uniform, burberry jacket (whether it was in classic black or ugly yellow, ick), designer jeans (true religion, SFAMK, or Citizens), and a pair of Uggs. At least people are *somewhat* getting over the lv phase...

On My First Week Back in New Haven-

I didn't want to come back, it was so warm at home. And it was snowing when I came back to CT, and it was just so sucky. I'm taking 4 classes this semester, so I'm going to be so overwhelmed and busy. I have a new library boss too, but she's cool, so that's one thing to be thankful for. Despite the suckiness of being back, here are some highlights of the week:

*Seeing New Haven peeps!
*Making hundreds from Ebay by selling a couple of items! My closet is my investment!!!!
*Being the center of attention when I walk into the room. (i'm talking about bartels and the library, lol)
*Watching bollywood themed movies at 3:00 AM
*Getting holla-ed at by library men, yay.
*Din din with the girlies!
*Buying Hpnotiq at the liquor store for next week's party!!!! (Hotness)
*Actually buying a large quantity of alcohol for the first time (virgin no more)
*Still being able to party despite being sick
*Being a certain person's only "ho" (while he's my only bitch)
*Decorating:)
*Getting my Kooba Scarlett bag (you wish you had it!)
*Being sad to leave church early, even though I had already been there for 2 hours
*The idea of taking that next step (which actually brought tears to my eyes, which I hastily attempted to wipe away)
*Getting my very first massage!!!

And the low points:

*classes commencing
*being terribly ill with a cold for most of the week
*hot flashes at night
*forgetting ish
*not being able to sleep thurs. night


Enough procrastination, it's time to do homework, boo.

...

Don't think this hasn't been difficult. At first it starts off as being really funny, and then it gets fucked up, and it messes with your mind. Ya'll do not need to change, it's THEM who need to change. I think that everyone knew how I felt at first, so you can imagine how I feel now. I'm just so disappointed, and I'm sad to know that what I always believed in my heart was true all along. And maybe there's some good out there, but I just can't see it right now, and maybe I NEVER will.

"Lost, nobody found us, the force that surrounds us
Ain't with us, they get us on the ground and hit us"...