hahahahaha

So I looked in my Spam folder, and the title of an email was: "Find the Value of Any Ho". LMAO.

night time post in my beloved md

I really can't write a true expose on myself until my longings and desires are fulfilled. But I can write a bit.

My internship at NRDC ended last week on Friday. As much as I know that it is beneficial to my career, I can't help but feel very sad about it. NRDC was my home for the past 5 months. I met amazing people, including Yolanda and May. I don't know, just not being there for the past few days is like having a hole in my life. I know, it's *just* work, right? But it's not, I really made friends there. So I'm just trying to cope.

My last week was filled with good dialogue and wise words from Yolanda, lol. The week before, she took May and me out to Rosa Mexicano, the most amazing Mexican restaurant ever! It was seriously one of the nicest restuarants, and the food was so delicious:) And it had the most gorgeous ambiance, lol. But anyways, back to last week. May got me a bouquet of flowers, and Yolanda got me a journal and stationary set. I really didn't want to leave, I even considered applying for the general hr intern position there. But I know that when it's your time to leave, it's imperative to do it without going back on your word.

On Friday I went to happy hour, but the usuals weren't there. Unfortunately, M brought that fugly girl that he claimed that he wasn't going to see anymore. So I was pissed at him, and I think that he knew it. We really didn't say goodbye. And maybe it's better that way. I really don't need to be chasing a grown ass man who still doesn't seem to have his act together. And um, copping feels when he's dating other women. I'm over it.

But yeah, so I got tipsy off of amaretto sour (1) and a red bull and henessey (1/4). But the way, people seem to be like "damn" when I order the red bull and henessey. Come on now, it's not *that* strong! Anyways, so I made a couple of tipsy calls to Kim, and next thing you know, I was on the PATH to NJ. Kim, Raj and I went to Hoboken and had Malaysian for dinner. We proceeded to walk around and go to Johnny Rockets for milkshakes. It's a gorgeous place, NJ. You can see NYC from pier, and there's a railed boardwalk too. It's so new and upcoming. We also took glamour shots, which I'll have to put up at some point:) I also got to see Kim's mansion, aka, her really big studio! It's so pretty, and in a safe high rise building. I had so much fun that night with Kim and Raj, I'm glad that we changed our clubbing plans.

Let's see, I was supposed to go home on Saturday, but and unexpected meeting on Monday kept me away from MD. So instead, I chilled with Zack, drove to the outlets and had a tasty dinner at a dim sum restaurant by my apartment.

Sunday, I kinda didn't end up in church, and ended up running a bunch of errands and attempted to make things perfect.

Monday, I had my meeting. But then I was told that I needed to have another meeting today, so I had to wait to go home today. I got lost in Yonkers on my way home. It was absolutely terrifying. When I pulled up to the gas station, with my flip flops and suit on a guy yelled out "you lost, gal?". I was scuurrred. Luckily, I found my way out of Yonkers. I finally arrived in MD at 4:30, and was greeted by a little red doggie jumping up and acting crazy! Gotta love my lil baby.

So hopefully everything will be revealed to you all by the end of the week. Stay tuned....

A wise choice for an outfit?

Im wearing my new jean skirt today, and old man at work when he greeted me had the nerve to *look*/ *blatantly stare* at my exposed legs. um, ok, we are pretty laidback, and I should be able to wear my skirt if I want to, darn it. I played it down a bit by putting pastel colors in to make it look tame.

Tubby Tub Tub

I'm 5'0 and 200 pounds (ok, i'm half that weight, for real). My fat ass broke a chair today. I'm wearing my fat jeans. And now I'm going to go and steal a Twinkie from a kid off of the street!

oh dear

so jamie, vandhana, and i met for lunch in union square. they got takeout at subway while i went over to the japanese restuarant. after ordering my food, i decided to sit down in one of the chairs. said chair broke as i sat down, and i basically looked like a turtle on its back, ass in the frame, limbs up. and jamie and vandhana walked in just as it occurred. the restuarant, to cover their asses, neosporined and bandaged up my somewhat broken skin on my arm and proceeded to give me the money back for the food. guess they didn't want a lawsuit. i was sooo embarrassed though, and i soo lost my dignity.

in other news, i'm going to hell next week on saturday. oh well, it'll be a fun ride!

And Maybe I'm One of the Wild Ones

It's been sooo freakin hectic lately, but I love it so much:)

I moved into the Taft Apartments over the weekend. Details in an upcoming post!

I can walk to the train station now, which is exciting.

I'm doing terribly with my "man ban". I was text messaged numerous times by L, and I think that he's pursuing again. But don't worry guys.

I keep seeing Imran downtown, which kind of freaks me out. Yes, I know he goes to school dtown, but I thought that he might chill in other places. Guess not. I've already seen him twice in 4 days. Coincidence? I highly disagree.

If push comes to shove, I'm going to break my "man ban" for the culmination of 14 months of longing: casual time with A. OK, so he's going to be my suga daddy, hopefully. And I think that it's ok to break the ban for that.

But dammit, I might see L just because I'm bored.

I'm so conflicted.

Help.

(and my title is in reference to the SATC quote that Jamie put up. Yup yup;) )

darn it

Less than 24 hours (I kid you not) into my "Man Ban", I was already about to break the vow. Isn't that bad?!?!?!?

Weeks in Review

Sigh, I haven't posted in awhile, and must update:)

So let's begin with the week of July 17th in my New York saga.

Thursday of that week was a lot of fun! After work, I met Patrick at Crate and Barrel for a wine and cheese. Can I just say that I am currently in love with pecorino cheese and adoring tasty red wine? Sigh, it was wonderful. Elena met up with us, and we went to a tasty Cuban restaurant. Too bad that there was some rude hobo there saying expletives and being impatient. Later on that night, kim, her coworker, Genny my coworker, her friend and I went to Webster Hall! Actually, it was sorta a boring night there because there were old and unattractive men and not so good reggae. Went home with my reggae needs unfulfilled, lol. But Kim's coworker is so nice, and and he drove each of us home (which entailed driving to Columbia, Brooklyn, and NJ before driving himself back to Queens).

On Friday, Kim and I proceeded to eat at a tasty vietnamese restaurant in Chinatown. I was thinking about going to happy hour, but I decided not to.

On Saturday, I went to New Haven, but all of my friends were gone, tears! I went to New Haven specifically to apartment shop though. I looked at the Taft and Liberty apartments. Both are the luxury I need with 24 hour doormen and full concierge:) No w/d in the apartment, but there is a laundry room on the premises. In the end, the Taft was my choice because of the free rent promotion and the fact that the room wasn't oddly shaped like the Liberty's rooms. So I'm all set for downtown new haven living! Just need to sign the lease, and I will move in! After my busy day of apartment shopping, I decided to go real shopping. I ended up carrying a Jcrew bag to the Boyz II Men concert downtown and felt a lil awkward. Oh well. The concert was alright.

I spent Saturday night in New Haven, but went back to NYC early in the morning! I decided that I would check out SoHo, and there was also a street fair! Yippee, can we say lemonade and corn cakes! I also went to Dean and Deluca and bought a cookie. It was a lazy Sunday, but I had a good time.

This brings us to the week of the 24th.

On Tuesday, I went to my first baseball game after work! Mets versus the chicago team. It was soo cool, and NRDC was like Daddy Warbucks and not only paid for the tickets, but also gave each intern $20 spending cash:) How nice! The game was good, really intriguing! But the Mets lost.

On Thursday, Sherry and I went out to eat at a Japanese restaurant for lunch! It was really good! We also went to the intern happy hour after work. I then prepared myself for going to Lotus. Kim and I found a website called Club Planet that will let us get on guestlists for clubs so that we can get in for free! Yay, so we thought that Lotus would be oh so exclusive, so we really dressed to impress. I wore my gorgeous Stuart Weitzmans that are regularly $385, but I bought them at NR for around $50, and Eva Longoria wore them to a movie premiere! So I was looking STUNNING. But unfortunately, the shoes were painful, like only for red carpet soirees. Kim and I had to call a cab to get to the lounge. And I had to keep sitting down in the lounge. Well, whatever. Lotus did not have a tough door, and we got in with free drink passes. Kim and I surveyed the lounge, and saw that it was all thirty somethings. Niceley dressed, but not hot thirty somethings. Darn. And the free drink passes were only for red or white wine or gin or vodka. No Strawberry Mojitos. I was sad. But that's ok, we had red wine, and found a place to sit and "lounge". The place looked sooo nice, but the music was so terrible, it made me ill. Like, they were playing India Arie and Total. I mean, these are not songs to dance to. So, it's a gorgeous place, but they didn't have good music and no beautiful people (except for Kim and I) that night.

Friday night was much better:) Kim and I went to Happy Hour with my coworkers (mostly interns and a couple of program assistants and Matt). It was a place called the Metro Bar. Kim and I were starving, so we ordered some food, and a glass of white wine. It was seriously the best wine that we ever tasted! It was so sweet and good, I was so elated! Rieslen or something. Then, everyone started trickling out. Matt wanted to stay, and Kim and I had nothing to do. So we met up with Larry the lawyer from my office, and we went to No Idea, the usual place. We finally found out *why* Matt likes this place with the annoying rock music: they give more booze for your buck. Larry the lawyer, Matt, Kim and I had very interesting, intellectual conversations. It was a lot of fun talking to larry because he is so knowledgeable on a variety of subjects.I especially liked when Matt and I arm wrestled and the under the table action, hahaha. Joking. I was quite amused by it, LOL.

Saturday ended up being a lot of fun too! I went with Juliann and Petra, my coworkers, to the Native American festival in Queens! Oh, it was an all day affair! We met in Flushing, which is like Chinatown number 2 of New York, lol! Then, we proceeded to take a car to the farm. We were able to hold little ducklings and pet some cute little animals, yay! We were able to celebrate my culture, I even had a buffalo burger! I bought a cute mirror for my new apartment too.
Later on that night, Kim, Raj, Patrick and I went to SOBs. It was such a good club, good music, live music with dancers too! it was a good night, despite the fact that I lost my Wachovia card, boo. We also went to a french cafe afterwards and had a tasty meal.

Sunday, I went back to New Haven, ignored Confused Sheep during church profusely, and ran some errands.

Now, we move to last week, the week of the 30th.

Tuesday, I was sick, so I skipped work. But then I ended up having a good day out! I went to a really good pan asian restaurant in BK called Chance, and I went to Century 21 and the Brooklyn Botanical Gardens. I also had a date with a hot personal trainer too! It's too bad that he's 27 and still in college and also sorta financially unstable. Also, he wants to stay in school til he's 40 and doesn't mind being poor throughout the process. Not what I'm looking for right now! Send the investment bankers my way!

Wednesday, Kim came to my neck of the woods after work! We went to a tasty Indian restaurant, where the staff had a big fight in the back, ooh. We were supposed to go out, but we just ended up chilling and talking at Baskin Robbins til 12:30 AM.

Thursday, Kim and I went to the hotspot, the China Club! We also went to lil Italy too. Good times, good times:)

Friday, Kim and I went to a Brooklyn Cyclones baseball game in Coney Island. It was a sorta boring game, so Kim and I had to amuse ourselves with interesting conversation. I just wish that people would see what's right in front of them, if you know what I mean.

And Saturday, I moved out of brooklyn. I saw the girl I subleted from, Jennifer Bruno from Ridgefield, CT. She is one psycho. It was a bad situation, and I don't feel like going into the horrid details. But I bitched her out over the phone. And when I saw her on Saturday, she was visibly shaking. Good enough for her.

Later, Erin and I went to Hula Hanks and chilled with Trina and Rochelle. Interesting experience.

Right now, I'm tired of ppl's bullshit, and I am not afraid to call their asses out if they fuck up. I am NOT the person to fuck with.